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Well last weekend was ok I guess...Friday night wasted my time going out to Shags....Saturday night I was out at The Heart Of Darkness and scared alot of people. It was very good night and not only that KWWL came out and Sunday morning Kevin and Dolly ( the owners of THOD) were on TV talking about the haunt and stuff...I got a ticket to NIN in Cedar Rapids for Nov. 20th...that should be good even though I am going alone.......................but, Sunday the weather was sh!tty..surprisingly the haunt stayed open and people came out to THOD. Crow and Runner came out with some friends so it was a good night. Overall the weekend was ok I guess...

Shawn Kahler

WoW. What news would I wanna hear the most before I begin my weekend..My brother and his wife just sold there house and they have to be out by Dec. 5th, 2008 and moveing to Oregon where is mom is...WOW!! I dunno weither to laugh or cry right now...but, this fuking sucks people.................................Hope your weekend is good?!

Willie

Well it's Thursday and I have about 1 hour to go here at work. My brother's wife Molly called me the other night and she asked me to be this clown named Willie at Sturgis next year. I wasn't sure at first. Then she told me how much im getting paid and what I am gonna do and stuff. I was like I am in! So hopefully that follows through for me sounds pretty cool to look forward in doing next year. Today I made a check for $2,500.00 I feel really "accomplished" because this isn't going towards a bunch of paintball gear or some rims for my car. It's going towards the loan on my car! I will have about about $10,000.00 after this and I hope to have it paid off by June 24th (my b-day) next year. Laitly I feel ive been a little depressed about some things in my personal life and I don't know why I am being this way. I should be glad to be single but, it's just killing me inside for some reason. I don't know why I have feelings for this special someone but, she has changed laitly and somethings aren't really good with her personality! Nothing will be perfect though! Thats why sometimes people don't get what they want, they get what they can have? I don't know that seems a bit wrong but, thats kinda how I feel anymore..I just hope this weekend goes well for me. Tommorrow I am getting off at 7:30 and maybe going out to the haunt for a bit then getting ready for the bar(s) then Saturday I hope to sign up at the YMCA or somewhere so I can start getting my belly back into shape. Later probably going out to the haunt then hangin out with my bfff and some girl she works with. Probably hit up some clubs maybe? Sunday probably workout hopefully then the haunt in the evening. I am not sure what else to talk about. So, ill just stop right here and say goodbye for now..

THIS WILL GIVE YOU CHILLS

AFTER A FEW OF THE USUAL SUNDAY EVENING HYMNS, THE CHURCH'S PASTOR SLOWLY STOOD UP, WALKED OVER TO THE PULPIT AND, BEFORE HE GAVE HIS SERMON FOR THE EVENING, HE BRIEFLY INTRODUCED A GUEST MINISTER WHO WAS IN THE SERVICE THAT EVENING. IN THE INTRODUCTION, THE PASTOR TOLD THE CONGREGATION THAT THE GUEST MINISTER WAS ONE OF HIS DEAREST CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AND THAT HE WANTED HIM TO HAVE A FEW MOMENTS TO GREET THE CHURCH AND SHARE WHATEVER HE FELT WOULD BE APPROPRIATE FOR THE SERVICE. WITH THAT, AN ELDERLY MAN STEPPED UP TO THE PULPIT AND BEGAN TO SPEAK. 'A FATHER, HIS SON, AND A FRIEND OF HIS SON WERE SAILING OFF THE PACIFIC COAST ,' HE BEGAN. 'WHEN A FAST APPROACHING STORM BLOCKED ANY ATTEMPT TO GET BACK TO THE SHORE. THE WAVES WERE SO HIGH, THAT EVEN THOUGH THE FATHER WAS AN EXPERIENCED SAILOR, HE COULD NOT KEEP THE BOAT UPRIGHT AND THE THREE WERE SWEPT INTO THE OCEAN AS THE BOAT CAPSIZED. 'THE OLD MAN HESITATED FOR A MOMENT, MAKING EYE CONTACT WITH TWO TEENAGERS WHO WERE, FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE SERVICE BEGAN LOOKING SOMEWHAT INTERESTED IN HIS STORY. THE AGED MINISTER CONTINUED WITH HIS STORY, 'GRABBING A RESCUE LINE, THE FATHER HAD TO MAKE THE MOST EXCRUCIATING DECISION OF HIS LIFE: TO WHICH BOY WOULD HE THROW THE OTHER END OF THE LIFE LINE. HE ONLY HAD SECONDS TO MAKE THE DECISION. THE FATHER KNEW THAT HIS SON WAS A CHRISTIAN AND HE, ALSO, KNEW THAT HIS SON'S FRIEND WAS NOT. THE AGONY OF HIS DECISION COULD NOT BE MATCHED BY THE TORRENT OF WAVES. AS THE FATHER YELLED OUT, 'I LOVE YOU, SON!' HE THREW OUT THE LIFE LINE TO HIS SON'S FRIEND. BY THE TIME THE FATHER HAD PULLED THE FRIEND BACK TO THE CAPSIZED BOAT, HIS SON HAD DISAPPEARED BENEATH THE RAGING SWELLS INTO THE BLACK OF NIGHT. HIS BODY WAS NEVER RECOVERED. BY THIS TIME, THE TWO TEENAGERS WERE SITTING UP STRAIGHT IN THE PEW, ANXIOUSLY WAITING FOR THE NEXT WORDS TO COME OUT OF THE OLD MINISTER'S MOUTH. 'THE FATHER,' HE CONTINUED, 'KNEW HIS SON WOULD STEP INTO ETERNITY WITH JESUS AND HE COULD NOT BEAR THE THOUGHT OF HIS SON'S FRIEND STEPPING INTO AN ETERNITY WITHOUT JESUS.. THEREFORE, HE SACRIFICED HIS SON TO SAVE THE SON'S FRIEND. ' HOW GREAT IS THE LOVE OF GOD THAT HE SHOULD DO THE SAME FOR US. OUR HEAVENLY FATHER SACRIFICED HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WE COULD BE SAVED. I URGE YOU TO ACCEPT HIS OFFER TO RESCUE YOU AND TAKE A HOLD OF THE LIFE LINE HE IS THROWING OUT TO YOU IN THIS SERVICE.' WITH THAT, THE OLD MAN TURNED AND SAT BACK DOWN IN HIS CHAIR AS SILENCE FILLED THE ROOM. THE PASTOR AGAIN WALKED SLOWLY TO THE PULPIT AND DELIVERED A BRIEF SERMON WITH AN INVITATION AT THE END. HOWEVER, NO ONE RESPONDED TO THE APPEAL. WITHIN MINUTES AFTER THE SERVICE ENDED, THE TWO TEENAGERS WERE AT THE OLD MAN'S SIDE. 'THAT WAS A NICE STORY,' POLITELY STATED ONE OF THEM,'BUT I DON'T THINK IT WAS VERY REALISTIC FOR A FATHER TO GIVE UP HIS ONLY SON'S LIFE IN HOPES THAT THE OTHER BOY WOULD BECOME A CHRISTIAN.' 'WELL, YOU'VE GOT A POINT THERE,' THE OLD MAN REPLIED, GLANCING DOWN AT HIS WORN BIBLE. A BIG SMILE BROADENED HIS NARROW FACE. HE ONCE AGAIN LOOKED UP AT THE BOYS AND SAID, 'IT SURE ISN'T VERY REALISTIC, IS IT? BUT, I'M STANDING HERE TODAY TO TELL YOU THAT STORY GIVES ME A GLIMPSE OF WHAT IT MUST HAVE BEEN LIKE FOR GOD TO GIVE UP HIS SON FOR ME. YOU SEE... I WAS THAT FATHER AND YOUR PASTOR IS MY SON'S FRIEND.'

Part 1

Hello. I thought this was pretty stupid to blog but, sometimes at work it gets pretty boreing. My name is Ryan Kahler. I am 21 years old as of June 2008. I currently work at Grainger and intend to work here untill something else thats super fantastic comes up for me. I think life is a b!tch and, it's treating me like crap when it comes to hooking up with women. It's eaither I am not their type or they just want to be friends. Maybe I am to much of a nice guy? Well sorry I am not an a$$hole like most guys. I lack a bit of social skills thanks to the lack of friends throughout high school. It didn't help with me liveing in Waterloo, IA all my life and going to school in Hudson, IA. In the end as I still think it sucks alot. It really made me a more mature and responsible man though. I have two brothers (Shawn and Shane) and one sister ( Heather). I have like 9 cousin's, 3 nephew's, and 4 neice's. As ive pretty much said Hudson sucks. I quit show choir, basketball, and stuff because I felt it was a waste of time as IT WAS. I only did it for my parents and my grandparents that look out for me everyday after school my whole life..I never did really enjoy it..thats why I quit and started working to earn money to spend on the sport I did and still enjoy playing. Paintball. I started playing paintball way back in 8th or 9th grade. My parents got me my first gun for christmas about a year later I join a new team called Evil Empire and I was on the team since then all the way up to August 2007. So, that was like 8-9 years of Team Evil Empire. Earlier this year I got to play with and against Bea Youngs/Paxson, Mike Paxson, Greg Hastings, and Brittany Wagoner at Adventure Park Paintball in Shellsburg, IA. That was a great experience! After that event I had join a team called Genesis and after a few weeks I was feeling the way I was with Evil Empire before I quit! I didn't want to quit because alot was going on for them and then have a future and there moveing and improving rapidly which is great but, I just don't have it in me anymore. Laitly I have been getting motivation to get back into shape and maybe give Genesis another shot IF Steve ( the owner of the team) would give it to me but, I just am not sure. I will not try again unless I know I will not quit. So, since paintball is fadeing in and out of me lailty I don't much besides hangout with my cousin Cassie. She is like a sister to me and is the closest person I can talk to about anything. I trust my parents and can talk to them but, Cassie helps me out with my problems and sh!t when I am haveing a bad day. Also laitly I have been volunteering out at The Heart Of Darkness ( haunted attraction) otherwise fall/winter doesn't offer much to do for me...for my interests that is. Well I am have a hell of a night at work and I keep getting interrupted with calls so, I am going to complete my first entry now.