Love Stinks

Me, Myself, and I. That is all it will be for now untill she comes to me. I really don't care anymore. Life is gonna be about me right now I am tired of trying for that "other person" Waste of time, money, and feelings...All I have to say to "you" is your fake. Not YOU but HER. This weekend better be good..I am gonna work and do whatever the fuk I want to make myself to have a good time...Sunday is Super Bowl and other than that nothing is going on...I am anxious to get my Pinokio and Destiny jersey from Bea..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Well it has to be like a month or more since I have done my last blog. So, I figure why not do one more before 2008 ends. Well lets see the major things thats happened this year that involves me or happened to me. I quit CBE and got in at Grainger. I got to play paintball with Mike Paxson, Bea Youngs Paxson, Greg Hastings, and Brittany Wagoner. I was on Bea's website because I beat her on our 1 on 1 at the event. I joined and quit Team Genesis. I turned 21. My grandpa Jerry Aneweer passed away aswell as Bea Youngs Paxson's dad. A well known paintballer in IA let alone the Midwest Jason "Towlie" he passed away before Thanksgiving after winning the NPPL San Diego with HK Army I think it was....I went to Montana on Amtrak to see my BFFF thats was a rollercoaster time but, it was great. I got to see Nine Inch Nails this year aswell as Buckcherry, Shinedown, Avenged Sevenfold, Saveing Abel, State of Shock, Papa Roach, Seether, Stained and not but at least my sister with Induced Coma! My brother moved to Oregon. I am starting to run out of things here...I got my first ear pierceings(twice) this year.
Well now that I am shot with what has happened lets talk about what I want to happen for 2009. I hope that I can find that woman thats gonna be mine for the rest of my life. I hope to find her and start building that relationship so one day I can maybe put a ring on her finger. I hope to pay off my car. If car is paid off and things work out maybe move out towards the end of 2009 if not hopefully in 2010 for sure!??!! I hope they are no deaths in the family. I hope that my sister and Kenny get Induced Coma on tour so they can start RAWKIN!

Well thats all I can think of for now! So long 2008 and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I'M GONNA BE SOURCEING TRAINED SOON!

Well I am getting sourceing trained tomorrow and Thursday finally..I keep on trying to get a girl when I see one im interested and once again I feel and think im being shot down right now...just firends..or some g@y reason. Common people this is retarded. If it's this b!tchin to ge ta girl let along figure if she is the one or not and probably loose her anyway then this is a waste of time, effort, and money!! Fuk these games I won't let you play me. I wanna get down to business and know what your about and decide if your a lazy piece of sh!t or not. Anyway enough with my female problems...I have been thinking about my grandma alot laitly I think it's because her birthday is in a couple weeks but, it tears me up still because I never go to apologize to her...All of a sudden I went blank with what to vent about now...so I am going to end this blog entry...

This weekend better be one of the best of this year!

Well my lil' "problem" has been getting better but, I maybe doing something stupid for the situation and im gonna gamble everything all or nothing...I may get hurt out of this but, thats life and what b!tch it can be! Friday is the concert Staind, Seether, and Papa Roach that will be good hopefully. Other than that Saturday will be a long fun day. Going to see the new Punisher then the hockey game Black Hawks vs. Omaha. My brother leaves for Oregon Friday :-(

IT'S FRIDAY!

It sure has been sometime since ive posted my last blog. I am really bored and alot is on my mind right now so I feel this is the cure or at least I hope it helps me.. Laitly I have had a problem in my life nothing serious but, serious to me and it is driving me nuts and insane almost. I don't wanna go into details but, I almost have to, to talk about this anymore than I have...I just hope everything settles down and back to normal how it was a week ago..Other than this situation im in...I have just been working and hanging out with my bfff Cassie. Last weekend I got to hang out with Lisa from the haunt..She is the coolest ever..maybe we can be good friends and hopefully she finds a sitter for her son so we can go out tomorrow night so I can relive my thoughts on other problems I am haveing in my life...Other than that joyous news..a guy I knew since way back in the day of my beginning moments playing tournament paintball Jason "Towlie" Calef died after getting 1st place at the San Diego NPPL earlier last week. He was 22 years old and a good guy it seems but, from what I knew of him he was a d!ck and a cheater in paintball...but, if that was true he wouldn't have made it to Aftershock or have as many friends as he does...R.I.P. bro...to top off that last week Bea Paxson's dad pasted away also..soo what a deathly week for all paintball fans...Bea is struggling with debt helping out her father past years after he got diagnosed with a sickness he recently died from...I hope all works out for you Bea and Youngs family..Hopefully tommorrow me and Cassie will go to CR and go shopping and check out stuff at the mall(s) later on I hope to go to some bars with Lisa but, my luck is sooo sh!tty I am thinking she won't find a sitter for her lil boy..Now that I have said this I have jinx myself and it won't occur but, whatever lifes a b!tch anyway...It is what it is...hopefully there will be a next time? Sunday I am doing jack sh!t except for later that night I am going to Spicoli's w/Cassie and hopefully my sister and Kenny..to see Eddie Buzzard and another band or more?

Is It Friday Yet?

I am staying late an hour tonight so I can get off an hour early Friday. Ugh. Last weekend I got to see my sis perfom finally. The show was good because she was singing but, reality it wasn't as good as it should have been...the speakers and volume on different things were messed up a little bit and was makeing sound as good as it should have but, thats ok it is the first show and of course that will never be perfect the first time around.......Lailty I have been getting a bit of motivation for paintball even though the season is near end.....I hope to get my car paid of ASAP and maybe get back into hardcore paintball....hopefully I don't back out again next time around like I did earlier this year.......now that halloween is over with and fall/winter is near I am gonna be bored as sh!t these coming months....

www.entertheheartofdarkness.com

Well last weekend was ok I guess...Friday night wasted my time going out to Shags....Saturday night I was out at The Heart Of Darkness and scared alot of people. It was very good night and not only that KWWL came out and Sunday morning Kevin and Dolly ( the owners of THOD) were on TV talking about the haunt and stuff...I got a ticket to NIN in Cedar Rapids for Nov. 20th...that should be good even though I am going alone.......................but, Sunday the weather was sh!tty..surprisingly the haunt stayed open and people came out to THOD. Crow and Runner came out with some friends so it was a good night. Overall the weekend was ok I guess...